Why Thank You.

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WOW! I literally don’t know what to say other than WOW! As I am writing this I have already had 267 views on my website. In the two short days since launching it which, is far more than I could have ever of imagined. I mean, I have never been this popular, ever! [cringes – sorry]*

*This is my first thank you to everyone who has looked my website, and everyone who will look at it again.

When I re-started this journey on 01 June, I never expected I would ever be in this position. I really am so very grateful [I know I say this a lot, but I genuinely really mean it]. Numbers shouldn’t be the central focus, for me its not, but it is the recognition that comes with it. But there is a reason why this means quite so much to little old* Soph.

*Old: (by definition of personality type) enjoys being cosy, blankets and warm hugs…wait, now I sound like Olaf!

…SUICIDE. One word. A shattering of worlds…

In 2013,  my Dad ended his own life. As I sat in our lounge with my Mum, two police officers gave me the news that changed my world as I knew it. SUICIDE. One word. A shattering of worlds.

At 17 years old, I had already lived through so much, innocently and perhaps blissfully unaware of its seriousness, the emotional abuse, the physicality of my ‘relationship’ with him. [imagine, I thought being pinned against a wall by my neck was ‘normal’]. Suddenly, my childhood as I knew it, violently [pardon the pun] flipped on its head.

…I turned graphic design and illustration…

My goals and dreams that I once had were suddenly replaced with a dark cloud of depression, fear and anxiety, which, still manifest themselves with my life today. Although anxiety is much more the leader these days. I was never arty at school, and it wasn’t until about this time last year I turned to graphic design and illustration to channel my thoughts [believe it or not, I am completely self taught].

The love and joy it provides me with, through bringing someones ideas to life and the feedback I receive as a result of this, has provided me with a love of life I had forgotten even existed. The thrill of even the smallest amount of success has fulled my fire to reach my goals* more than anything has over the past few years.

*I just wanted to take this opportunity to interject that the goals I have today are 100% times different than the goals I had five years ago. I never expected to be in the position I am today. If you feel like you have lost your direction in life, don’t give up! Find new goals, open new doors and don’t be afraid of the dark – create the light.

…and so that is WHY every like, kind comment, retweet or follow, means so very much to me. It gives me the validation that this world we live in isn’t all bad, and that life itself can be full of joy and hope*.

*This is my second thank you, for all of the support I have received. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

This is me, and finally, I think I am exactly [almost] where I want to be [anyone else singing The Greatest Showman in their head?! – no, just me?].

This is my reason why. 

 

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  1. June 24, 2018 / 8:26 pm

    Sorry that you went through this, but I know that it made you stronger and what you are now today! Congrats on the launching of the website as well! Hope you had more views and services purchased along the blogging journey! Thank you for sharing this! 🙂

    Love the apps you shared! I can still remmber from my previous relationship we are also using a game app to talk with each other. Mostly there, than yahoo messenger. Yahoo messenger was the most popular back then! 😂

    Ellaine | In Betweens

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 24, 2018 / 8:41 pm

      Hi Ellaine,

      Thank you so so much for such a lovely comment. It really means so much! I certainly have had more views and orders and it has made me really smile! 💗💗

      • June 24, 2018 / 8:44 pm

        No worries!!! I know how it feels like to be happy, so I want everyone around me to be happy as well. 🙂 thanks lovely!!!! You are one of those who made me feel welcome in mu first few days in the twitter world! ❤️

        • GraphicsBySoph
          Author
          June 24, 2018 / 9:45 pm

          Ah this is so true! Sometimes I loose sight of happiness and it makes me so much more precious about the days when I am really happy and I just want to give a piece of it to everyone! 💗 Ah you’re welcome! xx

  2. June 24, 2018 / 8:27 pm

    Sorry my last comment had a copied comment on it, I was trying to comment my nae with my url on it! Hahaha!

  3. Kymmie
    June 25, 2018 / 9:13 am

    Hey Soph! Just sharing some love with you. It’s Kymmie xx

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 9:46 am

      Thank you so much Kymmie! 💗

  4. June 25, 2018 / 1:06 pm

    Wow Soph, you’ve been through so much!! Congrats on your blogging successes so far. I’m sure your blog growth will continue. Thank you for sharing this.

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 1:52 pm

      Hi Sarah, thank you so much for the kind words! I really appreciate it! I am certainly looking forward to seeing where this journey takes me. 💗

  5. June 25, 2018 / 4:59 pm

    Soph, you’re such a lovely person and so talented, you deserve all the succsesses in the world! <3

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 7:17 pm

      Ah thank you so so much Hannah! Means so much! 💗

  6. June 25, 2018 / 4:59 pm

    This is one of the most honest things I have read and you are incredibly brave

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 7:18 pm

      Thank you so much Kat. This means so much! 💗

  7. June 25, 2018 / 6:08 pm

    Suicide is such a wretched thing to deal with as is the trauma of abuse. It sounds like you are heading down a healing path though and it’s so wonderful to see someone following a passion like this, especially a self taught passion! I too love graphic design and art and your work is fabulous! Congrats on the blogging success so far!

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 7:19 pm

      Hi Kristen, thank you so much for such a lovely comment. It certainly was a terrible time, and sometimes still catches up on me. But I certainly am going in the right direction now! ☺️ Thank you for being so kind! 💗

  8. June 25, 2018 / 6:47 pm

    I love your blog and also your blog headers. You deserve all the success you get.

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 7:21 pm

      Now I’m confused if your name is Dan or Thom! 😂 Thank you so much for your kind words though! It really means so much! ☺️

  9. June 25, 2018 / 7:23 pm

    Wow, what a journey you have been on in life….I can see that it’s made you stronger and I wish you every success with your blog! xx

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 7:24 pm

      Thank you so much Laura! It certainly has been a bit of a journey, but hopefully on to a better one now! ☺️

  10. June 25, 2018 / 7:50 pm

    It’s so important to acknowledge the past when recognizing the present in all its greatness. You’ve overcome a lot more than most people would ever dream so early on in life, but you seem to have handled it gracefully.

    And I was humming along to The Greatest Showman at the end when I saw that last sentence. You aren’t alone! 🙂

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      June 25, 2018 / 9:34 pm

      Ah thank you so much Elaine! You really are the kindest person and this comment really made me smile so much!

      I am SO glad I wasn’t the only one! 💗

  11. Ellie Phillips
    June 26, 2018 / 9:23 am

    You’re so brave for sharing what happened to you in your childhood and my heart goes out to you, but over 200 views in 2 days is absolutely incredible! You should be proud of your designs which are amazing and you seem like such a really nice girl, these kinda thank you posts make me love the blogging community more than I already do!

    ellie // http://www.thediaryofellie.com

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      July 1, 2018 / 9:45 am

      Hi Ellie, thank you so much for commenting. Thank you, it really has been the most whirlwind experience and I really am so grateful for it. Ah, that is so lovely of you to say, and I honestly cannot tell you how much that means. I really do love the blogging community, I don’t think I could be without it.

  12. June 29, 2018 / 7:37 am

    I’m really sorry to hear about your father, and also what you experienced by his hand. It must have been very hard and conflicting for you.

    As cliche as it sounds, I really believe everything happens for a reason. Directly or indirectly, and your experience indirectly triggered your talents and a new love for life. That’s a beautiful thing.

    I’ve always wanted to get into graphics design, so I would love to hear more about how you got into it! I would definitely read that if it were a blog 🙂

    Laura ☆ http://www.laurahasablog.co.uk

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      July 1, 2018 / 9:44 am

      Hi Laura, thank you so much for commenting. Please don’t be sorry its not your fault. It was and sometimes still is very conflicting. I am totally with you on that, I am full believer of things happening for a reason. Thank you. Ah, that is a really good idea, I most definitely will start putting together a post about that. Thank you for being so kind.

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      July 1, 2018 / 9:41 am

      Thank you so much <3

  13. June 30, 2018 / 4:16 pm

    I’m sorry you had to go through all that, but despite those hurdles, it sounds like you have turned your life around for the better. Thank you for sharing your story, I’m sure it wasn’t easy.

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      July 1, 2018 / 9:40 am

      Thank you so much for commenting Sarah. Please don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault. I am certainly hoping that my life is starting to head in the right direction. Thank you for being so kind.

  14. July 3, 2018 / 6:55 pm

    What you have got through is amazing! It’s crazy how different we can become even in the space of 12 months. Congratulations on everything you have achieved! I hope everything keeps going onwards and upwards for you!

    • GraphicsBySoph
      Author
      July 3, 2018 / 9:56 pm

      Thank you SO much Hannah! This really means SO much! 💗

  15. July 5, 2018 / 2:12 pm

    Wow, what a story. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for you, fingers crossed it’s something amazing! ✨💗

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